Oh baby is right. There’s one growing in my belly. This entire experience has been an unexpected surprise and quite frankly, surreal. Baby Erwin is officially due August 3, 2016. The timing is a blessing considering August is a much slower wedding month for me compared to the craziness of Fall. Our whole little world is about to be shaken up and changed, what I feel, for the better.
If you would have told me a few months ago I would be writing a blog about being pregnant and expecting a baby, I would have suggested you check yourself into a mental facility. Although I started to feel self-induced pressure because I was getting older and felt as if time was running out, I never expected to be pregnant so soon. But as with life, and thankfully so, I don’t always get to make the plans even though I’m a planner. There’s someone else responsible for that and I’ll leave it in his fully capable hands.
Our sweet little peanut is a result of me taking my birth control pills more like candy rather than a regimented means of actually controlling birth. And while not intentionally planned, it only further confirms just how meant to be it is and I actually treasure that even more. I’m sure I would have made countless excuses about it not being the right time had I been in control of the timing.
The pregnancy thus far has not been easy. I would even go as far as to say it has been one of the hardest things I have ever had to experience. It’s involved weeks of little to no food, daily vomiting, doctor and hospital visits for fluids, countless hours spent in bed, multiple emotional breakdowns and throwing up in Moe’s, Target and even a shoe. I was diagnosed around week 6 with Hyperemesis Gravidarum. Eventually I’ll blog about HG and offer my tips for anyone experiencing the ruthless effects of the condition, but for now we’ll keep this post focused on the things that have brought joy to my life over the last 15 weeks.
Once-in-a-lifetime experiences like telling our friends during a game night, my parent’s wildly candid and utterly surprised reactions captured on video, my best friend’s and brother’s genuine excitement during an ultrasound, seeing a blob on a screen with an audible heartbeat, tears of joy watching said blob transform into the shape and form of an actual baby over mere weeks and learning that my best friend of 28 years is pregnant at the exact same time as me and realizing we’re able to share this journey together. Those are moments in time I’ll never recapture and I will certainly never forget.
I have felt an outpouring of love and support from family and friends and have been so appreciative of their excitement for our growing baby. We decided (or maybe I decided and forced Chase to agree) to style an announcement shoot and were fortunate enough that Inspired by This decided to feature it on their blog. To see the feature, visit this link.
Now that the secret is out of the bag, we’re onto the task of finding a home for our expanding family. As much as we have enjoyed and valued living a simpler life in a one-bedroom apartment, we’re very skeptical the space will be suitable for adding a fourth member. We’re on the housing hunt and excited about the next chapter.
So before you pick your jaw up from the floor, I do want to send a huge thank you to my clients who allowed me to disappear for two months. I was physically incapable of answering emails or keeping up with work and they graciously gave me the time to rest and recover. I cannot tell you how grateful I am for their trust in me and for giving me the necessary time to focus on not only my health, but the health of Baby E. And now you can resume your shock and awe facial expression. Looking forward to blogging and sharing all of the exciting changes to come! Happy Valentine’s Day, friends!
Photography: AJ Dunlap
Venue: The Glass Box
Flowers: Serendipity Designs
Cake: Sugar Euphoria
Calligraphy: Bella Joviality
Make Up: Perfection by Patricia
Hair: Blown Away Raleigh
Dress: Rent the Runway
P.S. – Although we are having an early gender 4d ultrasound this weekend, the pink included in these pictures do not indicate we’re having a girl. The colors are solely for Valentine’s Day.